Monday morning, Bnei Brak.
I am a believing Jew.
Therefore, I oppose pride parades.
But by virtue of this, I am also going to attend the funeral of Shira Banki, may God have mercy on her, a girl who was unjustly murdered by a wicked evil man, who stole my Judaism and turned it into a butcher's knife.
Let not the earth cover her blood, and let there be no place for her cry.
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Monday evening, Kibbutz Nachshon
I didn't come to apologize. I have nothing to apologize for.
I didn't come to identify with one lifestyle or another.
I came to cry for a 16-year-old girl, innocent and innocent, who in the spring of her life was slaughtered with unspeakable cruelty.
I came to be shocked that alongside the murderer, there are a few of the few, ignorant and uncivilized, wicked and cruel, who try to invent various distorted and false justifications for such a horrific act, and thus defile Judaism and G-d.
I came to spit in the face of these numerous desecrators of the name of God, of the destroyers of Judaism, and to tell them: I have no part with you, your people are not my people, your God is not my God.
I came because I promised I would come, that I wouldn't stay silent this time, that I would shout enough, simply enough!
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The day after
And everyone asks: How is this possible?
How can a person who trusts in the Torah and "Thou shalt not murder," which is written and repeated in it time and time again, and alongside it are countless rules of testimony and rules of warning, and laws of making a judgment and a just judgment, and countless strings of laws and reservations, until there was no court that would sentence a person to death except once every seventy years - and that is when it was also called a "fatal court." How, then, is it possible for such a person to take a knife in his hand with the aim of killing a soul from Israel, and even more so in the name of that Torah itself?
A small article in the Talmud about a verse that was read this coming Shabbat provides the one answer:
""'And this is the Torah which Moses set' (Deuteronomy 4:44) - He who is worthy, it becomes for him the elixir of life. He who is not worthy, it becomes for him the elixir of death.".
When he does not gain it, if even after all this he still has not managed to learn and discover and internalize it, gain it and purify himself, it becomes a deadly poison for him, and for others.
Torah is not a guaranteed shield and shield against disaster. And in the hands of those who are not worthy of it, even the Torah itself sometimes becomes a double-edged sword.