My name is Naomi and I am proud to be Robbie Bennett's wife.
I'm still not sure if it's right for me to write, but at this moment my heart dictates.
It is an absolute truth that this is not an easy time, but an even more absolute truth that it is a test of faith. Not for the strong, not for the righteous, but for me - a simple person like me.
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Those of you who have fallen into the freelance trap know exactly what I'm talking about. Those in the music industry can literally copy-paste the feelings inside.
But I, I can only speak for myself, not even for my youth champion.
Passover is coming. As the sole logistics manager at home, I am faced with decisions about what is necessary and essential and what we will save until the wrath passes. What is considered a necessity and Shabbat and holiday expenses, and what can wait.
I could have easily fallen into worry, fear is always of the unknown. But I decided to stand up and look faith in the eyes.
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On Rosh Hashanah 5700, the Creator sat down and decreed a good and sweet year for us.
The budget was signed, everything included.
Believe me, there were high school graduations, in Israel and abroad, and there were lottery events, and of course there was the coronavirus. Yes, she was there already on Rosh Hashanah, invited to teach me a chapter on faith.
I think to myself, how could I not take a breath for a minute, write notes, edit and print folders, move between musicians and amplification, and build diverse lineups... and I almost, almost collapsed.
I thanked God for all the abundance, I opened both hands to receive it, but I had no more energy left.
And now, the good God has arranged for me a break, a little bit to breathe. True, I didn't ask for it, but He always makes everything so precise for me.
A major event in Paris was canceled for a technical reason, but only when the scheduled date arrived did we realize that if it had taken place, we would have had to completely isolate ourselves on Purim and oh... what we would have missed.
So tell me, is there anything like our God? For years I've been arriving at Seder night almost in exile with folders and notes for Chol HaMoed events. My husband is absent from every Chol HaMoed family meal and sometimes I am too. Click, click.
God forbid, I am not ungrateful, I thank God for everything He sends. But this year? This year I will feel differently, and our children will learn for the first time that Passover is a true holiday of freedom.
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I know, many of you will raise half an eyebrow, maybe even two, thinking that I am detached, that I am not looking into the vague future.
Some of you might say, she's trying to convince herself with this kind of talk, as if everything is fine...
So to you, those who have survived my words until now, I am proud to say: I, Naomi Bennett, believe with complete faith that the Creator, blessed be His name, leads His world with grace and mercy and provides sustenance for all!
We have had nearly ten events canceled in the coming month, but I have gained so much closer to God.
Thank you, Lord, for this year, for every gift, for the budget that has already been signed, and with your help, it will never end.
What is subject to change is how much we work and struggle for it...
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for kindly letting me into this holiday with my back straight, a true free woman.
