The taste of the coffee this morning was bitter, more bitter than the tears that had flowed into it.<\/p>\r\n
It's hard to start the day with headlines that remind you of the Holocaust.<\/p>\r\n
The images of Jews wrapped in tallit and adorned with tefillin, wallowing in a pool of blood made me choke up. It reminded me of the visit to Yad Vashem, the descriptions of Kristallnacht and the events of 1949.<\/p>\r\n
The headlines and images come at a dizzying pace and my head fills with thoughts and reflections...<\/p>\r\n
\""Dad, we're late for kindergarten.".<\/p>\r\n
My son brings me back to reality.<\/p>\r\n
I quickly make him a sandwich and think about those children who will no longer have a father to prepare food for them for kindergarten, and another tear flows.<\/p>\r\n
I give him a hand, leave the house, and get in the car.<\/p>\r\n
I immediately turn down the radio, a 5-year-old child doesn't need to hear descriptions of horrors, we arrive at the Talmud Torah gate, I examine the fences, look at the guard, try to smile at him like I do every morning but fail. "Take care of the child," I tell him with concern, "God takes care of us all," he answers me with a sad look. How right he is.<\/p>\r\n
I get back in the car and drive to the synagogue, imagining that one day they might need a guard here too.<\/p>\r\n
I remember my last visit to the Great Synagogue in Rome, high fences, security cameras, dozens of guards surrounding the building, so I thought to myself that only in Europe do we need protection against anti-Semites. Today I understand that even here, in the Jewish state, nothing is safe, how absurd.<\/p>\r\n
Entering a synagogue, looking for the safest place, sitting down by the emergency door, trying to imagine a scenario of terrorists entering the synagogue. Yes, if they reached Har Nof, a half-hour drive away, they could also reach here.<\/p>\r\n
Looking at the worshippers around me, thinking about the fact that there are people who started a prayer today in a synagogue and ended it in heaven, how much I love everyone here, how scary it is to think that it could happen here too, after all, no one has insurance.<\/p>\r\n
He puts on tefillin and remembers the tefillin of that guy in the picture, the tefillin with the blood stains, shivers.<\/p>\r\n
Trying to concentrate on prayer, every word suddenly takes on a different meaning, every seemingly natural moment becomes supernatural, four people went out to pray this morning and didn't return, you did, for now.<\/p>\r\n
Finishes the prayer, tries to start studying, no, can't concentrate, it won't work now.<\/p>\r\n
Getting into the car, the radio is full of commentary again, searching for blame, assigning responsibility, it's already getting disgusting: Aren't they tired of dealing with trifles while entire families break down in tears.<\/p>\r\n
How can one be interviewed? How can one speak after such a horrific event?<\/p>\r\n
After all, no one has solutions...<\/p>\r\n
It's all just piles of words and pages of messages from spokespeople, no one has an honest answer and a real solution to this terror. Actually, when you think about it, there is only one solution, one and only, the director of all these scenes, the one who leads us like puppets on strings, the one we sometimes forget is the one who sets the real agenda in the country.<\/p>\r\n
Father, Father in heaven, we didn't understand at first, we put our trust in the security forces and engaged in mutual accusations, that's it, now we understand that only you can put an end to this, only you can stop these scenes of horror, we understood the message, we promise to change, say enough to our troubles!<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"I put on tefillin and remember the tefillin of that guy in the picture, the tefillin with the blood stains, shivers \u2022 I look at the worshippers around me, thinking about how there are people who started praying in a synagogue today and ended it in Heaven \u2022 How much I love everyone here","protected":false},"author":10,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[138],"tags":[975,977,7771,7764,1140,7765,6345,7770,946,87,1607,7772,4219],"class_list":["post-106972","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-138","tag-975","tag-977","tag-7771","tag-7764","tag-1140","tag-7765","tag-6345","tag-7770","tag-946","tag-87","tag-1607","tag-7772","tag-4219"],"acf":[],"yoast_head":"\n