Why did Esti Weinstein suffer in her life there, in the wonderful world she had striven for?

Eliezer the Lion
June 28, 2016   
In the midst of the night of chants, and while the body lay before us, for a moment we thought that perhaps we had truly gone mad and that because of us, the depraved, dark, cold, disconnected Haredim, what happened happened. But we should pay attention to something important.
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The incident that shocked the entire nation with its severity, in which Massa Esti Weinstein lost her life, brought us all to reflection and internal examination.

""We must examine ourselves," people cried. "Maybe we really don't know how to accept those who are different? Maybe we really sinned by abandoning a woman who wanted our closeness? Maybe we act like a cult in everything and reject everyone who leaves it?""

Amidst the night of chants, and while the body lay before us, for a moment we thought that perhaps we were truly doomed and that because of us, the depraved, dark, cold, detached, evil and repulsive Haredim, and of course because of the closed, uncompromising Hasidic family - what happened happened.

But let's pay attention to something important:

Each of us has our own problems, crises, troubles, and suffering. Each of us chooses what to do with the heavy sack he carries on his shoulders. And if the sack is heavier than he can bear, and there is no flesh and blood to bear the burden with him, he turns to God and cries before Him.

We do not know, and we will never know, why she chose to do what she did. Even if we see a thousand letters in which she writes what she wrote, we will not be able to know what caused this extreme act (it is not certain that she really knew. Even though she wrote what she wrote).

Such an act is not done out of a single thing that happened in life. It is complex, as life is complex. For the most part, it is intertwined with a personal psychological problem of that character, a problem that is not directly related to what is seen from the outside.

But, if all the heartbreakers have already risen up and started attacking the Hasidic family and the entire Haredi community in general, perhaps it's worth mentioning that what she did was done when she was actually in the best situation for herself. In a situation where she succeeded in what she wanted.

She broke away from the evil umbilical cord and entered a better world, in her opinion, a world where there is no Torah, no commandments, no coercion, and no darkness.

Why did she decide to do what she did there, in this wonderful world she had striven for?

People who never had a God suddenly discover Him and understand the power He gives to those who believe in Him.

People who withdraw and deny it find themselves alone in the world, even if hundreds of people surround them with love.

It is difficult to leave God, even harder than leaving a community, than leaving a family and children.

Maybe she didn't know how to define what was bothering her, but one thing is certain and proven:

 When you have no one to cry to when you're feeling down, then you really have no life.

 And a final note: I'm not against conducting a home inspection in our neighborhood, but let's not take on a burden that isn't ours, just because others decided to roll it on our doorstep.


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